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I'm exactly where I want to be right now!
Thank You.
- Music:Schmuel Song- Norbert Leo Butz- Last 5 Years
- Mood:
cheerful
BUT, you having problems with your girlfriend is not my fault at all. You being mad at me for not being able to tell you what love is because you don't after three years is absolute bullshit. If you don't know whether or not you love her anymore, well then maybe it's time to leave. But you know what it is not time for? It's not time for blaming me or the rest of this family for all of your problems. I learned that at 17. Maybe you can learn it at 22.
Don't dish out what you can't take in. Don't blame your entire life on the death of your father. I won't use that excuse, and he was my father too.
Find a way to fix yourself, and don't take it out on me. I never did that to you.
Peace and love to everyone else but him,
DiRito
- Music:Where are You Going? (Live)- Dave Matthews Band
AND I AM SEEING JASON MRAZ ON DECEMBER 5TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Mood:
ecstatic
SO....
I've decided what the most beautiful thing in the world is (See image above). There is nothing better. Ballerinas are the embodiment of beauty, grace, and elegance. The world would be bland without them. I understand why Degas loved them. Ballerinas are truly the most beautiful people that have graced us with their presence.
Peace and Love,
DiRito
- Mood: touched
- Music:The Beauty is- The Light in the Piazza- Kelli O'Hara <33333333333333333333333333
I strangely found inspiration listening to this show last night. As I fell asleep listening to this piece, my dream was somewhat inspired by it. This song made an appearance in it. When I woke up, I felt like there was something I had to do.
I am writing a new play. It's specifically about certain people in my life. It's probably going to be too long for districts submission. But that's not what's important. The play itself is what's important.
Peace and Love, but always mostly love,
DiRito
- Music:Putting it Together- Sunday in the Park with George- Mandy Patinkin
1. I saw THE DARK KNIGHT
2. I've gotten full nights of sleep, something that hasn't been done in a while.
3. I've started to get prepared for college auditions and looked at college audition dates.
4. I already have my Brigadoon piece and have been rehearsing it for a bit.
5. I've made peace with my mother.
6. I've made peace with myself and feel like I'm beginning to make it with others.
7. I remember who I was, and have returned to that
I found that I've become genuinely happy. I sometimes have trouble merely going sleep because I am thinking of such wonderful things and they won't stop. But I'm not complaining. Bringing myself to fully appreciating everything I have and everything that I am has brought so much light to myself that it is unbelievable. I don't ever want to lose this happiness.
I have a feeling this is going to be a wonderful senior year. GO '09!
Peace and Love, but oh so much love,
DiRito
- Mood: cheerful
APUSH- 3 :) / :(
Lit- 2 HA!
I knew I would pass APUSH, I just thought I got like a 4.
As for Lit, I may have passed if I did that essay instead fo writing the lyrics to ALDOLFO!
Oh well, I passed. Which is def a win.
Peace and Love, but always mostly Love,
DiRito
- Music:Complainte de al Butte- Rufus Wainwright
I've decided my life's goal is to make such a name for myself as a performer that I will be considered the next Fred Astaire. All I need to do is find my Ginger Rogers and then it's off to make some magic.
- Music:Night and Day- Fred Astaire- Shall We Dance? (The Astaire Collection)
"I'm up among the stars
On Earthly things unbound
I'm throwing off the bars that held me down"
This is a truly wonderful feeling. Beind sad and negative makes things harder and days longer. But being happy just makes everything brighter. I think I have finally found my place of zen, my Secret Garden. I'm at a place that feels so good and is so perfect that I never want anything to bring me down from it.
PS: I've decided that women are the greatest thing on the planet. NO, not for sexual purposes!!!!!!!!! I decided this merely because they are the key to happiness and prosperity. Go girls! You Rock!
Peace and Love, but always mostly love,
DiRito :D
Edit: I've even found a way to get along with my mother. CHYEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Mood: jubilant
- Music:No Such Thing (Live)- Any Given Thursday- John Mayer
Due to this superior grasp of control, benefits have come my way. I met the most wonderful girl a couple of days ago. She acts a little bit, she is my age, she's super cute, and she is so nice and funny. But most importantly, she matched me in a Guitar Hero match. For those of who do not know, this hasn't happened since I've reached my skill level with anyone that I've played in person.
Good things are coming. Maybe. Hopefully. But I just feel it in my gut. The sun, moon, and stars are looking down upon me and smiling. They tell me to go out and get it, and I promise them that I will.
Peace, love, song, and dance, but still mostly love,
DiRito
- Mood:
rejuvenated - Music:I'll Do Anything- Jason Mraz- Waiting for My Rocket to Come
I remember nonstop earthquake dreams of you
You're coming on fast like good dreams do
All night long"
-Still, Matt Nathanson, Some Mad Hope
I remember what could be said as the good old days. Those days when I felt happy are still in perfect memory. They were not too long ago, so it makes sense that my memories are so vivid and happy. There's just one problem. These memories do not take place here, let alone even in this state.
For all of the memories I have had where my family was at peace, I was away from home. For all of the memories that I was loving the people I was close with, I was away from home. For all of the memories that my actions were just and I was the righteous man, I was away from home.
For all of the memories of when I was happy, I was away from home.
I have never been happier to be a senior. One more year, and then you won't see my face until I am on the stage. Let's just hope that my peace has fully been reached by then.
Love and Peace but mostly Love,
DiRito
- Music:Sympathize- Amos Lee
School:
Yeah you're fucked alright and all for spite
You can kiss your sorry ass goodbye
Totally fucked well they'll mess you up
Well you know their gonna try
Drama:
You clear away the dead parts,
So the tender buds can form,
Loosen up the earth and
Let the roots get warm,
Let the roots get warm.
Come a mild day, come a warm rain,
Come a snowdrop, a-comin' up!
Come a lily, come a lilac!
Come to call,
Callin' all the rest to come and see!
Crushes:
This is wanting something, this praying for it,
This is holding breath and keeping fingers crossed.
This is counting blessings, this is wondering when I’ll see that boy again.
I’ve got a feeling he’s just a someone, too.
And the beauty is, when you realize, when you realize,
Someone could be looking for a someone like you.
Life:
Words are flowing out like
endless rain into a paper cup
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting through my open mind
Possessing and caressing me
Jai guru deva om
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
- Mood: complacent
- Music:Become- Edges OBC
Yeah, you’re fucked all right – and all for spite
You can kiss your sorry ass goodbye
Totally fucked – will they mess you up?
Well you know they’re gonna try
This is not the way I intended on ending out the year. Not at all. I began to reach zen and find peace. No tensions towards anyone, I was fine. Nothing could bring me down, until I looked in the mirror and saw changes that were coming in myself that I will not allow. FUCK ME!!!!!!!!!
1. I'm starting to become a regular guy. Not to the extent of regular perversion, but the people I've been around lately have been tampering with my thoughts. My mind must take a stand against this. I've nothing against these people, but I must not let them cahnge my persona.
2. I've become rather fond of self-sabotage in my own home. I do something right, and then immediately do something stupid to fuck me over. It's become rather obnoxious and annoying.
3. I feel like I'm longing for something. I've been having recent dreams where I'm trying to get something. Sometimes I get it and sometimes I don't. I need to figure out what it is.
4. WTF COLLEGE AUDITIONS IN A FEW MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????!
5. BLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Some good things:
1. Brigadoon. Excited for the show, mostly the dancing. :)
2. Spring Awakening at CSI. Although I'm not in it, a lot of cool people are in it and I'm really excited to see them perform.
3. EDGES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hopefully.
4. Lesson with Melanie next week. I haven't had one since the week before banquet, and I miss her and need to discuss the shows with her next week and start doing pieces and everything else in life.
5. Seeing Etai today. It's fun to see the man who guy who got me to find a passion in musical theatre. He's also the reason why I got inspired to make this my life.
- Mood:
aggravated - Music:Totally Fucked- Spring Awakening OBC
And then my teachers pull fast ones to make me not necessarily have a bad day, but to kill some of my good vibes.
Anyways things to look forward to:
1. Watching Across the Universe in McKinley
2. Indiana Jones on Friday
3. BANQUET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4. SYTYCD Thursday.
5. Exams to be over.
6. SUMMER!!!!!!
Hopefully I'll have a job during the summer so I can make so money so I can afford senior year.
Peace and Love,
DiRito
- Mood: peaceful
- Music:Make It Mine- Jason Mraz- We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things
"Hey, you're a DiRito. You're destined to be knocked on your ass so many times, some of those times by your own doing. But guess what, you always get back up. That's what being a DiRito is all about."
So I realize that hey:
1. I'm not alone.
2. The past is the past. No need to wallow in it.
3. Only a year left until I'm outta here.
Peace and Love but mostly Love,
DiRito
- Music:As We Stumble Along (Reprise)- The Drowsy Chaperone
I am going to keep my promise in that there is much, much to post.
1. Melody Lingers On proved to be very nice in the end. The audience loved it, and it felt like we all did what was right. Even though I had a large bomb dropped on me at dress rehearsal.
2. I'm over school. I need to be a senior and graduate.
3. States was rather enjoyable and entertaining. I was physically abused on the bus by the bus itself, my roomies were hilarious, the one act got straight sup's, the pianist fucked up my music, there weren't many impressive individual events, I thoroughly connected to "Look Homeward, Angel", I spent the state's dance with Julian, things didn't necessarily go as planned in a certain aspect. But in the end it was still fun, just not as fun as Les Mis. But then again, it couldn't have been.
4. I'm over school. I need to be a senior and graduate.
5. I really want to do the large group next year. I just need to do it with someone so I don't go as crazy as I did with MLO.
6. I'm over school. I need to be a senior and graduate.
7. I, uh, I don't know how to say this. I can't bear to look at you, because looking at you makes me look at myself, and when I do I want to just die with what I see. I don't see myself at all, I see someone that's disgraceful and worthless. I'm not who I used to be. All of my values, everything that made me who I was, that uniquely kind boy, left when you did. I can't even think straight, because there is no one left to clear my thoughts. And the worst part of it all, is deep down I still care about you. I saw you upset a week ago from tonight and it killed me to know that there was nothing I could do. IT BROKE MY HEART. I also know the truth. The only person to blame is myself. I'm not asking for you back, because I do not deserve it. I just want to tell you this. I've just decomposed without you, and it's all my fault.
- Music:Plane- Jason Mraz
Till touch down brings me round again to find
I'm not the man they think I am at home
Oh no no no I'm a rocket man
Rocket man burning out his fuse up here alone
Much, much more to come on the way.
- Music:Rocket Man- Jason Mraz Cover
Could I possibly be the biggest fucking douchebag in the world? Hmm, I absolutely think so.
I never fucking let myself get that way. Not at all. It's fucking meseed up, it's fucking fucked up, and its just fucking wrong. There was no reason for it. Absolutely none.
The more and more I think about it, the more disgusted I am with myself.
I hope people are pissed off at me, it's what I deserve. I cannot believe I let myself do that, I cannot believe that I personally am the biggest fucking asshole to roam this planet.
Just fuck man, what the fuck? I have never ever been so mad with myself.
peace and love, but mostly love
DiRito
- Music:Everybody's Got the Right- Assassins
Day 0: Hanging with Austin after school playing Rock Band and driving around
Day 1: Harry Potter Lunch-in, Hanging with Ju,
Day 2: Stephen Schwartz Workshop, Hanging with Zach
Day 3: Personal Down Time
- Music:Anna Molly- Incubus- Light Greandes
